How to fix a broken heart?

My dear journal,
I am feeling low and heart broken. Fixing a broken heart is surely hard to handle. Everytime I want to leave this behind, it seems that earth pulled me back to the pain. I just want to get over this and looking ahead for the new future.

I will forgive, forget and move on. Sayonara!

Sadness

Many people associate sad with tears. Some people associate that with heart. However, both are true. We can feel sad but show an unresponsive face. Some will have tears flowing out of their eyes and say that they are sad.

As for me, I need to swallow all my sadness at the moment. I think I've faced it, I guess so but I can't show that I am sad because it will make others sad. Do you think it's the right thing to do, the noble thing? I really have no clue.

I am sad but I can't show because if I do, I will be feeling self pity and don't want to work for the future. I have been feeling so for about a year and I think that I need to move on.

Do I need to stop contacting the person that cause be to feel sad as I think, forgetting will be easier. But, I also think that's the way to run from a problem.

How difficult to face your own 'feel' battle? Ask yourself when you face one....:)

Hiroshima in Peace

Visiting Hiroshima under the Hatsukaichi Peace Programme 2008 held by the Hatsukaichi International Association is like making peace with the ghost of World War II. The way I look at life, either my life or human life will never be same.

This programme was organised by the volunteers, most of them are housewife or woman of the house who's their main ideas is to let the world know about the Atomic bomb effect during the WWII on Hiroshima (then, it shall never be a single nuclear weapon in this world) and the word 'war' shall never be whispered ever again.

Me, personally I think and feel that God has been so kind to me, guiding me through this life. The homestay family's mother, or shall I say 'sister' as she looks so young and vibrant at early 50's, was able to cool me down (as I was so in to lab work and research and rat....). We both had a good time together talking about world, politics, life and ourselves. She's so understanding. Ah! one thing I need to say is that my Japanese language is so poor and God is so gracious that He sent me to this lady who is an English teacher. I end up being more cautious with my grammar.

I will tell more about Hiroshima in my next post.

Human kind

I would not touch the subject scientifically but through soul searching theory. Human is the most completed animal in this planet in term of brain development. Therefore, we're known as the leader of the world or mankind. That's true in a sense that we are able to use our mind to a certain limit.

I always believe that if we are using the mind, we are better. However, during last week conversation I was remind by someone that beside being human, we're also animal. Thus, as an animal we shall be using our body.

The best place to live and the best life to achieve is where there's a balance. I shall now start to use my body AND my mind, in balance.

Gambatte ne (*_*)

Preserverence

Life is tough. If I am not mistaken, there is one proverb, "When life get tougher, the tougher gets going". I don't know if I get the proverb correctly. I just don't care at the moment, not even to look in the Net. Life seems to be tough on me now.

How long can we show our tough side and try to get things work against all the oddness in the life? How can people get going? I don't like the life that I am living at the moment. I HATE it. But then again, when I take a look at all the hard work that I've endured to be here, I will wasted it all if I am going to give up.

I have no choice. It's either do or die. The tunnel is dark and hot. It produces some horrible sound when I passed by. For the moment, the end can be imagine but can't be seen. The walk have to be taken, alone and slowly but surely. I just need to get to the end of this. God, please make it quickly....

Summer in tokushima

I am from Malaysia. Tropical weather is like summer throughout the year. Thus, I shall get used to the summer, but never. I think hot and humid are worse combination. The temperature sometime goes up above 35 degrees Celsius which will never happened in Malaysia. However, I don't mind it at all. Experience is like university, and this universe is the university for me. I love to learn and experience is one of the way we're learning.

Yokatta!

Not as busy

Busy can be defined in many ways. Unscheduled tasks, unnecessarily tasks or abundant tasks. Last few months I was busy as hell. The professor would like to publish the unfinished paper left by the senior students who graduated last year. Both of them were very sure that the paper will be publish without any problems once he finished his lab work. Duh! It was rejected. Therefore, this humble servant, who happened to be me had to kill two birds with one stone. Luckily, at last it was accepted. Me, I am the second author.

So, I wish I had more time to write and share my journal of life.